I don’t even know what love is anymore.
The Darkness Awaits
(I’m not the best writer out there but I like to write. this is a poem I wrote back during Christmas in 2013 when everything started to come back) ps: I don’t feel like this anymore 😊
Sometimes the darkness just creeps up on me. During the day, while dancing, or laying In bed. Everything seems to go back to you. Everything I read reminds me of you. Everything I see reminds me of you. It takes me back to that Summer…heartbroken, depressed and insanely fragile. Those dark days are at the back of my mind waiting to creep up on me again. Waiting for me to feel the sadness all over again, to feel the worst I have ever felt. To make me feel like I’ll never be able to be happy again. You know you left me there in the darkness…in the shadow of our love behind me, around me, it surrounds me every day; The love we used to have; Surrounds every move I make, every breathe I take. How could you leave all that behind? How could you think I would be alright? And how dare you leave me there in that darkness, haunting every little step I make. How dare you? Do you not know what I went through? Do you not know how many times I cried? How many times I tried to get to you? Did you not love me? Did you not know how much I loved you? No. You didn’t. Because you wouldn’t leave someone you love in this darkness forever. The darkness that’s always waiting to creep back into my life, to destroy me once again. To have me be once again heartbroken, depressed and insanely fragile…